I have no idea why myself, but I burst into tears earlier because I was thinking about what I'm doing. I'm slowly losing interest in it, but I don't stop because it gets funny again. This has always been the case and where it will probably be today.
I'm a builder in Minecraft and really get on well with the community on the creative mode of this server. I was on today too, but as I said, I found it depressing this time, as I have often done. But as I have already written, it has always improved. But this time I couldn't get it out of my head when I was doing something else. And then I finally cried. I don't understand it myself.
I know it's not the best idea to make it known on the internet, but I've never had it before and have no idea what it was.
I'm more of an introvert, so I have only a few friends, and I'm slowly losing my best friend because our interests and character are becoming more and more dissimilar.
I know that life is pointless, but I've always been able to deal with it. Why suddenly not anymore?
I know this feeling too well.
When I was a little younger I felt the same way. I know that may sound a bit brisk, but it was the case with me.
To enjoy life and experience its meaning, you have to do something. Personal happiness does not come through the window and plays Minecraft with you.
I'm also rather introverted with few friends, but you have to deal with yourself a lot more.
So my tip: go outside, go experience something. Take any courses or travel alone or with family or friends, etc… But the most important thing is to find what makes you happy!
I know… My reason says that too, but it is still so. I even have something, I'm with the volunteer fire department. But that seems to be a long way off, I'm just transitioning from youth to ff, so I have to wait until I can really do it. Otherwise I know (as I said) that I have to do something, but not what I can do. I have the big problem of not being mainstream, so I don't like everything that is in excess, not even the people who do it. And I keep losing interest in something like that. First the guitar playing, jz judo… I just have no idea what.
Life is not meaningless. According to popular opinion, we have two tasks in life: to develop our personality and to love our fellow human beings. I suspect that in your work (of which I understand very little) you can't do either of the two tasks. Above all, you are isolating yourself more and more from your fellow human beings. Think about how you can find out from this self-chosen professional and private isolation. Your specialized IT skills should also be applicable in other, more open areas.
The activity mentioned is also not my whole life. It happened here, that's why I wrote it. But somehow it's a big part of my life. The matter of self-actualization is not the problem. It works very well there. But the thing with the social. I chat with people there, very much. I can almost call them friends. And yet it no longer feels like real friendship. It sounds like these boomers, who think friends from the Internet are not real friends. But they are. And not. I don't know, I think that they are no longer friends for me or anything. But if you don't understand me, you won't be able to help me here anyway…
That can be earlier.
